Wow — I’m so impressed by the level to which you have analyzed the situation in general and your personality/role in contributing to the unhealthiness of the relationship(s) specifically.
I greatly admire folks who “do the work.” Clearly you are not sticking your head in the sand or throwing blame on others.
Geez. I’m SO sorry she was deceitful with you (and probably herself). Those are the trickiest! It’s MUCH easier to look back and see the signs, but often very difficult to see them when you are in the middle of things.
I have to hope there are brighter days ahead for you and me! Let’s hope this ongoing reflection and analysis leads to better, healthier relationships in the future!
On a shallow note, what kind of music do you like, Heath ዟ?