So much truth in this! I’m prone to finding fault with myself regarding dating anyway and so much of what you wrote resonated. I think you are onto something: how much sheer luck is involved in the whole process! I have tried on-line dating, tried taking a break, tried dating “against type”, been set up, yada, yada, yada. And yet, somehow I (!) have failed the process.
Your story makes so much sense. More recently, I have been finding more peace in all of this and your words feel like another sign.
Additionally, you are officially my 100 follower, so I thank you for that small gift today as well as your writing!