Loved this one, Iva! You know I contemplate these things, too.
I’m trying to be more chill, though. After a very painful 2017 (well, 2014 through 2016, too — I never want to relive 2016), I can tell I have settled down a bit about dating/relationships. I still take it seriously, but I’m not wound as tightly as even a year ago.
Even so, as I get older I do wonder if the ship has sailed. I keep trying (as you know), but it feels less likely to happen. I straddle being realistic while trying to avoid being jaded or resentful. Most of the time I think I’m successful, but some days are harder!
I’m grateful for you and your voice, friend!